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No distance can keep us apart, Long as you're here...here in my heart.... PAST-PRESENT-FUTURE- Happy Valentines Day

Ink On.....(With retrospective effect i.e February 15th, 2013)

A special Friday (for the extraordinaire's like me who landed on earth on Feb 15th)  preceded by a special Thursday  (Feb 14th) which is special to a large clan and the privileged one's , who actually get in prior arrangements to make this day exceptional to the greatest extent possible. 

Most of them  have a firm belief in this day without digging in  the facts related to "What's and Why's".A large proportion of them believe that it's named after the Saint Valentine and some even call him as a God of Love but wait then for what Mr.Cupid is assigned for? As to the best of my knowledge the place has already been occupied by him.I was actually perplexed and got confused as I never really thought of getting into the questions related to the origin of this overrated festival of "Love Birds" not even when it had some importance for me. The thought was triggered not on the V-Day but a day after and without delaying further..I conveyed my brain  "Come on..you know that I hate questions and that too early in the morning, then how come this is the first thought you are producing as your daily chore? I directed further " See stuff like this is not for me, as neither I have any Valentine nor I am to any one...so please stop here and for your information,change your calendar it's over now..it's Feb 15th today and that's my  Birthday" special day for me as I got this world and special day for the world as this very day it was bestowed with a person alien to this mankind (Thank you for the Applause :)]) and with that I decided that I will not bother Sergey Brin and Larry Page with any stupid Google search like this "Why we celebrate Valentines Day?" rather it would be more interesting if I changed my search to "How Ms. Leone is celebrating her Valentines Day [Adult content-You can read under parental guidance :p]."

So with that decision, I got myself ready for the office and you won't believe the glow on my face increased exponentially without applying any "Mardo waali cream"..perhaps it was the Birthday effect...so I can say..no day is better than your Birthday..because it really makes you feel very special, phone calls, messages, gifts, surprise and even less or you can say no work at office...every second is special..you can term it as "Bird day"..as I really felt like a Bird...ready to take off...:)  

After a while, I found myself sitting in the metro (coach next to girls') and you know for a change (which was drastic actually) I was not checking out the beings with different biological configurations, but I got myself indulged in a "Google" search on my cell phone and that too was "Why we celebrate Valentines Day?"..God..on my birthday I was searching information for the day which was past....I tell you my brain is very much like me..it loves taking the route which is termed as prohibited, but by the time I would have closed the search window , with the blink of eyes my 3G connection reflected "n" number of suggestions and by going through all of them I realized "It's not only me who is confused but there are other people as well who are sailing in the same boat", most of the results showed different reasons to celebrate.The one which I found interesting was something that said " In the Middle ages in Europe there was a custom of choosing mate and through the ages, people believed that birds picked their mates on Feb 14th"

After reading that, I looked around and realized that if someone is available to be picked up or can become my mate for a lifetime, but I found no one is interested and I decided to wait for the next Valentine's Day. While I was depressed in the thoughts of my lost valentine (which existed till last year) and was surfing the suggestions, I came across an article which said "Past-Present-Future". I found it very interesting and in the end it had a quote which said "What is your past is someone's present  and What is someone's present can be your future-Life revolves around the permutations and combinations of "Past-Present & Future". That article put so many plugs in and I was fully into it.Suddenly, I heard the announcement "Next station is Akshardham". That was my stop, I de-boarded metro and came out of the station to wait for a colleague of mine who was supposed to pick me up. I sat on one of the benches to wait for him and with that article in mind, I turn my I-Pod on to listen a song. After a while, a guy came and sat on my left hand side, a tall handsome guy with a bouquet of roses in hand, I realized he is late; the day of roses are over, I thought while waiting I can pass my time and I decided to get in conversation with him and forced with that, I asked " If you don't mind, can I ask you a question- Valentines day is over and these red roses, don't you think you are late?", he smiled and said,  " Actually, I am not from Delhi and have come today only to meet my "Girlfriend" and it's my first Valentines day, so we are celebrating today". The guy was elated, I was able to sense his happiness as I too was excited and elated when I had my first Valentines day date with my ex girlfriend.

A small conversation with that guy left me with guilt and disappointment, I realized all my faults which had resulted in an unsuccessful relationship. While my mind was speaking for me, I got a call from my colleague and came to know that he will be delayed, I started checking out the crowd and I was about to plug in my earphones again but a sad sigh struck my ears and I tried locating the source and found an old man sitting at my right hand side, his face was not visible as it was covered with both of his hands, he was actually crying, by that time the intensity was much higher and the way he wept was something which filled me with grief and remorse, it was so very painful that I got backed and  asked " Uncle, are you alright? What happened? Tell me, perhaps I can help you ! The guy also joined me and poked him to get some details. The old man appeared to me in his early eighties certainly, he was lean and exhausted, we offered him water and requested him to calm down.After a while he said " My wife died yesterday, she suffered a heart stroke and is no more with me.I was not there when she died, I was out to buy liquor for myself, I can't forgive myself, I didn't manage to give her a good life, instead I kept her deprived of basic needs, all I lived was a self-centered life, all that she expected from me was a meager amount of care but I didn't even bother to listen to her, now I really want to hear her voice, I want to talk to her , I want to show my care and love.I don't want to live, it's too late now.I made a mistake..a big mistake..leave me alone"  and with that he wept hard, we tried consoling him and asked him to be patient but we couldn't manage to. 

After a while I saw my colleague's car coming towards me, I left my center seat, packed my bag and trudged towards his car and while I was about to enter in the car, I looked back and saw that the guy who was sitting at my left was still sitting there and the old man sitting right to me was still there all alone and shattered.

With that view, the article that I had surfed while commuting in the metro stroked my mind and somewhere my brain started correlating that with my PRESENT condition, I realized the guy sitting left was my PAST, as at some point of time I was in his position, I was also happy in a relationship till I started taking it for granted and now I am all alone, still confused whether to wait or move and then I realized that now , If  by chance I got into a new relationship, I will care for her, I will love her and will not take her for granted and if I did, perhaps I too would end up cursing/ regretting whole of my life and ruining my FUTURE like the elderly being who shared that bench with me.

The day left me with a learning that: 

"The life is a permutation and combination of "Past-Present-Future", All we have to do is to learn from our PAST , to construct our PRESENT based on those learning so that we can rise and shine with a FUTURE full of love and happiness without any regret and remorse." 

With those thoughts,our car slowly moved away and within no seconds I decided that this time I don't want to regret and without any delay I took out my cell phone and texted  a girl with whom I have recently come in contact that :

"In the sound of silence, time is standing still...there's some kind of bond between us..that's giving me the chill..I want to admit, that I am feeling for you..the wind is same..but the air is new...I don't want to lose , I do want to live...the life with you... forever, forever, forever..."

So, at the end of the day it was a Friday full of learning and transformation into a new life..." I am so curious for more..Just like never before..In my new..innocent life..YOU & I"

Ink OFF..till I get here again..on a new Friday...."Friday Blogger"

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